It's not that I've planned it or looked for it...it just always happened to be the way things turn out. It's a painful curse...one that I'm not proud of nor like to brag about, I talk about it because I'm very open about my life and it's many quirks.

Anyway. What am I talking about exactly? A certain...trait that I found in all of my "relationships" throughout my life. Although it's been reoccurring nearly all my life, I've noticed it just recently, oddly enough. It seems that every girl I've been involved with in any romantic sense - be it a faithful relationship or a one-night stand - was either already involved with another guy (at the time) or in the process of becoming involved with other guy. More often than not, that "other guy" was even a friend of mine. Asshole-ish, i know. Call it selfishness, inconsideration, not following the bros-before-hoes / man-rules thing. You know, that whole, "don't date a girl your homie has dated / is interested in." But I don't know, who the fack am I to help it if she is interested in me more that you? (Ack, ok, asshole-ish comment. Sorry.)

Like I said, I never planned it that way or pursued girls that were involved *on purpose.* Sometimes it just happened to be that I met a new girl, we got close, she was interested, I was interested, and I found out about the Mister *after* the fact. Other times, I KNEW dude was involved, but I never expected nor planned a mutual attraction. Things just happened that way. The facked up was when dude was the homie - I mean ouch. It's to the point where I *know* some friends are cautious in bringing their new love interest around me. Talk about bad rap.

But I dunno. Even though I don't plan on all that happening, there's a sense of pride involved when you KNOW she wants you more than him. The fact that you know you can take it if you want it...it's a truly EVIL thought process. Did I ever in my LIFE think this to be how I'd turn out in my early twenties? Hells to the no. I thought I'd be the most honorable son-of-a-gun that you could meet, one you could trust with anything and everything. (That's partially true now, the only thing you can't trust me on is...yeah.) But gahdammit, I refuse to let this be my legacy. I don't want to be known as a homewrecker. I don't want to have my karma backed-up twice around the world, ready to bite me in the ass.

DO ME A FAVOR:
If you're involved, STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME.

I'd like to have a girl I didn't have to steal from a nigga.

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